More Of Minnesota Shooter’s Writings Uncovered: ‘Gender And Weed F***ed Up My Head’

A trans-identifying gunman who shot up a Catholic school’s church this week blamed transgenderism, weed, and his mother’s disapproval for his mental illness, according to newly uncovered writings.

Robin Westman, who legally changed his name from Robert in 2020 after he began identifying as female, said the way his mother handled his trangender identity made him want to kill people, according to the New York Post, which translated Westman’s writings from a mixture of Cyrillic characters and English phonetic words. Westman wrote about his transgender identity, weed use, and mother in a journal entry dated July 1.

“Your words, mother, made me stay in my discomfort unable to ask for help to avoid admitting defeat. You were right mama, but the way you handled it led me to wanting to kill so so many people,” Westman wrote.

“When I was first out to my mother, she was VERY antagonistic. She really made me hate myself and think I will never be good enough,” he wrote. “I remember one day, she said something like, ‘In the future you will look back and feel ridiculous about who you feel like you are inside. You will regret this.’”

“Well guess what mom?! I regret being born,” he said.

He blamed transgenderism and constant weed use for severe mental illness, and he expressed regret for his adoption of both.

“Gender and weed f***ed up my head,” Westman wrote. “I wish I never tried experimenting with either. Don’t let your kids smoke weed or change gender until they are like seventeen.”

Westman, 23, targeted the church at Annunciation Catholic School on Wednesday morning, firing through the church’s windows from a parking lot while students from the school attended mass. Westman killed two students, 8-year-old Fletcher Merkel and 10-year-old Harper Moyski, and wounded 18 others. The shooter died after turning his gun on himself.

The gunman left behind numerous writings, videos, and other communications that include deeply troubling and hateful thoughts and intentions. Westman directed strong feelings at Christians, Jews, and President Donald Trump, but also at himself and his transgender identity.

“I only keep [long hair] because it is pretty much my last shred of being trans. I am tired of being trans, I wish I never brain-washed myself,” Westman wrote.

“I can’t cut my hair now as it would be [an] embarrassing defeat, and it might be a concerning change of character that could get me reported,” he added. “It just always gets in my way. I will probably chop it on the day of the attack.”

Westman changed his name from Robert to Robin in 2020 at the age of 17. His mother, Mary Grace Westman, signed the official papers.